A wISH?!

The cold pure snow
Melts hearts
Are children any different?

Like the green
After autumn leaves
Children complete the circle of life.

Tears from high,
Cause joy, pain, awe
Are children any different?

Roses in a thunderstorm
Make me smile
Just like children...

The flooded river flows
Shaping valleys
Are children any different?

Unlike a caterpillar
That grows beautiful after winter
Why are humans so different?

A garden in spring
The heart of wonder
Are children any different?

Like animals that feed
On each other in the jungle...
Would we rather be children?!?!?!?

Turning Back

Turn to despair, beyond my belief,
Waiting to move on, to get rid of the grief.
And the misery bottled up inside,
Kills me each day, like a poisoned knife.

Getting lost in nature, is an option no more,
Every falling leaf, every bird that flies.
Reminds me of what once was,
Now burdened by all the lies.

As I walk along the river bank,
The trees for company.
And the bunnies hopping around,
The grass that brush my knee.

The lark sings away,
unmindful of the fact
A stranger has entered his land,
in mind, a sinful act.

The ants carry on, from leaf to leaf,
building bridges from their selves,
in harmony with nature,
even fairies, witches and elves.

Human sacrifice is to be remembered,
an act that makes the cause selfish.
Wish I could learn from the insects here,
that suddenly seem even more dear.

Time moves on by,
No matter how hard you try,
making up my mind, to end it all,
a step away from eternity after this call.

Life can end in a flash,
One single moment when You're rash,
can I stop myself from this mistake,
afterall, I do feel like trash.
Unloved and unsure of what is,
In the dark about my tomorrow.
Happiness is just a leap away,
Freedom from all my sorrow.

The twigs strewn around,
The logs that cut the river.
The green canopy that surrounds me,
A wonder that makes me shiver.

The fishes, black, white and coloured,
stare at me, from under water.
They sense the tug of my hormones, I guess,
that in a moment will take me underwater.

I walk alongside the prickly bushes,
that dot the river bank.
Searching for a clearing somewhere,
Before I tank, choosing to say a prayer.

I close my eyes for a moment,
letting my life flash by.
An entire saga unfolding,
That's driven me to give up my life.

Before I take the final leap,
a deep breath , I decide to take.
Doubting if I really want my body,
to end up in this icy lake.

A moment of indecision is all it takes,
for everything right to go wrong or the other way round.
I open my eyes for a second,
to wake up and hear a flashing sound.

A streak of lightening shimmers off the lake,
the dark clouds shudder in their wake.
Rain drops bouncing off the leaves,
Shimmer away under moonlit beams.

Feels like i'm in heaven,
Now that I've left my worries behind.
Reminding me of the simple pleasures in life,
like the ones I now find.

Life is so much more simple,
I believe these are my last moments here.
Striving to enjoy every bit That's left,
making that very bit so dear...

Having learnt my lesson, will I turn and walk away?
Will I see tomorrow, now that i know my today...?

Masquerade!

Masquerade for a masquerade!
The entire world, a masquerade!
Oh! Almighty, Glorified masquerade!
How we love the Masquerade!!

Faces take you places,
Each face speaks a story,
Covered in masked self glory,
The emotional masquerade!

One lie unfolds with another,
Lost in story telling,
Each lie a soul felling,
The emotional masquerade!

Every other smile a fake,
Bottled up emotions failing to come apart,
Pinned to us like a dart,
The emotional masquerade!

Masquerade for a masquerade!
The entire world, a masquerade!
A never ending masquerade!
The most fascinating Masquerade!

What is it?!

This poem is dedicated to Mary Magdalene...
"This I say to you woman, I LOVE YOU,
Think not this love different from any other.
I love all men as equal,
My father, my brothers and my mother.

A special disciple you are,
amongst all of them.
Thou hast come to me in repentance,
unlike many other men.

Unlike those who seek me,
riches, well being and the SELF, their goal.
I do not condemn their human nature,
But, you come to purify your soul."

'With arms spread out, I stand as a beggar,
a failed life and nothing to hope for.
I find a ray of light in thee,
to rid my dark soul of its scar.

In debt, I do not see myself,
cause thou, hath forgiven me.
In all honesty, I find myself,
surrendered at your feet.

The path you tread on,
is far too holy for my tears.
I am , but a sinner Lord,
drowned in misery and fears.'

"Do you not believe me woman,
when I say you are forgiven?!
Woman of little faith, sure aren't thou,
In me, dost not thou believe in?

As the father stands by me,
I have stood by you.
What good is any faith,
if it isn't true...!

Dispelllll your fears and trust
in the light you see.
Sin not again, you will , in humanness,
For you are now touched by divinity."

'Honoured Lord and humbled am I.
Accept service from this servant of thine.
Shameful and a wretched life of sin.
With thy love forgiven,
having purified me from within.

I did not know right from wrong,
I've wasted my days away.
Dreading every night that was so long.
i wish now , in my heart, you would stay.

I have not felt this way before,
I feel like I should sing,
singing praises of our Father Almighty,
and praising the Son, our King,'

"This I say to you,
Thy sins are truly washed away.
Blessed and holy may you be,
for now, shed all your dismay.

You trust in the one true God,
this in your heart, I see,
Once riddled in darkness and sin,
now bathed in purity.

You are to bear witness,
Bear witness to human salvation.
Bear witness to the truth.
The life of the Son of Man, his death and Resurrection."

The Betrayer?

(note- double quotes for Jesus, single inverteds for Judas , double quotes for the masses n the narrator speaks plain text...)

What greater shame befalls a man,
Who had- his friend betrayed.
A betrayal that was paid for,
A betrayal that was played.

A kiss, the harmonious union of lips,
The pecking symbol of love.
Destroyed, shamed, disgraced.
Was it a script from above?

You kiss the ones you love,
Kiss Him, he DID!
Woe to the man, said they,
To the man who won the silver bid.

It's not easy to be labelled a traitor,
By your friends and family.
Praised be the man, I say,
Who did his job faithfully.

Cursed was this man,
He, whose Heart was filled with grief.
For, he betrayed the man He'd die for,
And took his own life like a guilty thief.


"The scriptures must be fulfilled,
The Son of Man, is to be cheated.
You, Judas Iscariot are the chosen one,
and This Will, not be repeated.

Betray me, you will,
For the Glorious Cause.
The kingdom of heaven on earth.
And the greater glory of God.

It is the Father's will, that I must die,
For the world to be saved.
With your betrayal, brother Judas,
My path to resurrection be paved."

'I will not question thy authority Lord,
Thou art the Holy Son.
Now, thou hath chosen me,
to be the wretched one.

I do not regret Lord,
the hour , thou calleth today.
I regret what the future holdeth,
When, as a sinner, I will be, cast away.

This, I ask of thee, my Lord,
That thou would stand by my side.
If I ever be tempted and wander,
Thou will be my guide.'

" Fraid be not, for I am here,
And the Holy Spirit is too.
Through your every weakness,
My spirit will guide you.

Waver not in faith, my friend,
And you will not be forsaken.
I will keep my promise,
Abide by it, even when i'm taken."

'I love you Lord, with,
My heart and soul and mind.
But , thu which you ask of me,
May I say, is not very kind.

To betray a man I love the most,
The one who has given me life.
Now, I'm asked to, turn,
a kiss into a knife.

A knife that will cut so deep,
It will tear my soul apart.
Even before, the others,
deem that I've a BLACK HEART.'

"Look not for human approval, my friend,
For, the gates of heaven await you.
In the eyes of man, It's betrayal,
In heaven, turned a virtue.

You know not, the Father's ways,
cause you are only a man.
He works his ways mysteriously,
only as He can.

You will not be put to test,
You will live to tell a story.
After you've gone to rest,
Your name will be held in glory."

'I know Lord, the earth is not thy kingdom,
Of riches of a different kind, you are the king.
My body may go against you Lord,
In my heart, your praises sing.'

"Go now beloved Judas,
You must act quickly.
For the day of dawn, fast approaches,
A sacrifice to be made for humanity.

Play your part, my brother,
In this salvation story of mankind.
Here, a way, there is no other,
But, in heaven, your truth will unwind.

Remember, A kiss shall be the sign,
Into their hands, You'll lead me.
The symbol of love in a mask of betrayal,
Shall be the sign of sanctity..."


""There goes the betrayer,
The man who betrayed his brothers.
He, who lives , only for himself,
and doesn't care about the others.""

' "Woe to this man", said the Lord,
And so shall it be,
In this time of despair Lord,
why aren't thou with me.

The blood money, handed back Lord,
What good is silver to me...
When my heart and soul is lost in wilderness,
as I surrender to the tree.

I do not ask for comfort and riches Lord,
Cause in Heaven, I will be with thee.
I do ask for pardon and forgiveness Lord,
As I end my misery.......'

Miss Understood

Those round rimmed specs,
stood on a perfectly rounder nose.
Stand and smile , she did more than that,
she'd stop to think and hold that pose.

I miss reimi her face at times,
especially when i'm down.
When those rosy lips curved,
they managed to cure every frown.

I don't know why I like her,
old and grey haired, was she.
Everytime she crossed my place,
she'd pull my cheeks and say CHUBBY!

I don't think she taught us well,
otherwise, remember, a word, I would.
Of course... i do remember jus a word,
that she'd use often as she could.
Cause Every sentence she started,
ended with UNDERSTOOD.

Th best thing, I remember her for,
is that smile , a grin, a subtle laugh...?
Call it what you would...
The way she did it, nobody can,
She's my Miss Understood.

My Buddy

"I'm gonna fly high, till I reach the sky."
I think, I heard him say,
As he merrily whistled away.

I don't know why they called him crazy,
just cause he was tough to handle.
I think the others were just lazy,
His skin was smooth as candle.

Bounce, he would, up and away,
once you let him go.
No catching him after that,
unless he decide so.

I tried my might to tame him,
in despair I gave up for good.
Snack him with the bat, i'd think,
But, all I found was a piece of wood.

I picked up my weapon and swung it around,
like the bravest of knights did.
Threw him up and I did smack him oright,
I watched him go up and then I lost sight.

I heard a thonk, a plop n a plip,
Down in pieces was he.
My eyes went moist n the world went hazy,
I killed my best pal, a ball named CRAZY...

Bluey Days

I'm feeling so blue today,
my uniform is just a give away.
Crinkles all over my dress,
I look so darn sleepy, my face is in a mess.

I walk outta the house,
beaming with a smile.
Was it a rodent, maybe a mouse,
that left such a merry pile.

I walked right into the shit,
could my day be any better.
After that, I wall into a slush pit,
my shoes are soggy and wetter.

Could my day get any worse than this,
wait a sec, I hear a hiss.
Haha, this really CAN'T be happening now,
My cycle tube blew up some-how.

Maybe, I should just walk today,
Maybe , I should jus stay at home.
Rather slip here and break a bone,
than venture out alone.

So, this is how one of my blue days began,
Worse than it possibly can.
I just slept my blues away.
And woke up to a brighter day.

The Scarecrow

I knew the man , I just knew him very well,
He stood there with his head held high.
The eyes held with determination,
And just the hint of a smile.

A lil birdie poops on his head,
But, not a word , said he.
The hometown doggie marks his spot,
But the man stands firm, fixed in thought.

Marching towards someplace was he,
Whe someone freezed the frame.
A multitude flocks to see him everyday,
But no one knows his name.

Gentle, kind and a soul so merry,
the world had never before the chance to see,
a great leader he was. In death,
he left behind a legacy.

As he stands with his head held high,
But, wishing he could let out a sigh.
Weeds and bushes, his bed,
For company , a lark.
Here stands the scarecrow of the city,
Another statue in the park.

Superstar

I have been an evil soul,
Beaten bruised, to black from blue.
Aint no place for any gaping hole.
But, I wish that weren't true.

As I look at her, a cross thoughts my mind,
What does it pay to be so kind.
A righteous seat in the kingdom of heaven?
To be looked down upon by your own brethren?

Nails and chains can bind a man,
Who's heart is just as wild and free.
Love would've held him there,
Cause his heart only beat for you and me.

Stars- they rise, they shine, they fall.
Some jus never Die at all.
Superstars they are, my brothers,
Buddha, Gandhi and the others...

No grief surpassed, a mother crying,
In her sight, her only son dying.
No sorrow surpassed , a mother mourning,
Death puzzles even the purest of all,
Oh meek mortals, a lesson worth learning!

I sin, I fret, I make up by regret,
Change for ever? That will happen never.
A human was I, human am, and human will be.
Mortalness is jus normal to me.

Love , unconditionally? That too a stranger!
A heart so pure, that came from a manger.
Could it be possible? Is it for real?
People ask "What's the big deal??"
He had to die some day or the other,
But, he died for OUR sins, brother.
If that aint big a deal enough,
Open your heart, It's jus a bit tough.

I looked at her again,
the tears masking her pain.
Lying in her arms, He be,
How could someone bear this agony?

But strong her will, as she believed,
Her son is only resting.
The time will come, to be relieved,
and he'll go home, to his nesting.
Where His Father awaits his home coming,
Afterall, the hardwork's done!
Baby! He came... Oh boy! He lived... Mankind-he won.
His pure life, in this darkness humming.

Thoughts bound in darkness,
Pure hearts muddled in sin.
With every bout of forgiveness,
Let The circle of filth begin.

Sometimes I think It's cruel to 'curse'
A man who shed his blood.
A hundred thoughts, my head-they flood,
Is it the reason, I go from bad to worse?!

Can love be as cruel as this?
Can love just flow in vain?
Can love that forgives, cause so much pain?
When you sin again and again and again.

The body she holds is bathed in sweat,
The face disfigured by blood and wounds,
Did she ever regret?

Of being the mother of a star,
a star whose radiance, love shone.
The door of her heart, left ajar,
By He, who walked out alone.
A space, a void, that none could fill,
A body in her arms, lies so still.
She hopes and prays, her faith be true,
Her son will rise, a star anew.

In a moment of despair,
He lets out a loud cry,
Forsaken not, he should be,
As he looks out to heaven up high.

He knows, HE will, His Will is strong,
His faith has met no match.
To THE ONE, he does belong,
His love will take him back.

THY WILL, BE DONE, said He,
Like to the master, a genie.
Our sins, he paid with blood,
Showering love over all humanity.

In debt, I am, to this Man,
The one, I have never seen.
The heaviness in my heart keeps mounting,
To meet him, Am I keen.

Ask Him, will I. To be born again,
Back in the time, when he was,
Ask him will I , to live for himself,
His death seems a lost cause...

Sins committed, purified by his blood,
Sin again, will I,
His sacrifice seems in vain,
as I sin till I die.

He was human, I am too,
But, THE SON of GOD, was he,
We are Called to be children too,
But we so do love- human reality!

I very often think to myself,
what made him hang in there...
Was it His Dad's will he was doing,
or hoping it was a nightmare.
(cause a father, Will forgive his Son's screwing)

He could've backed, out of the mess,
Gone on to lead a revolution,
With subjects proclaiming "YOUR HIGHNESS"!

Tempted, fickle minded, weak he wasn't,
Neither a coward, was he.
A man who fought the bravest of wars,
and Embraced his destiny.

Arms outstretched, opened wide,
Spat on and mocked by fools with glee.
Even as they applauded his death,
He prayed that they may be forgiven,
Oh, What Irony..!

What irony tis to be given life,
By the man you so happily killed.
Hearts of friends left so broken,
and a mother whose eyes are filled.

Filled with anguish, helplessness, pain and grief,
the summit of what a human could bear,
as Tears flow down her cheek,
The life that was, is beyond repair.

Brave- the heart that soldiers on,
fearing not the impending dark.
Bearing in mind, the battle's just begun,
Life and Death- the contrast stark.

The warmth of her touch,
The look in her eye,
Wishing right now,
that he'd get up and smile.

The faith in her heart, the strength of her mind,
A subtle smile on her face, of HIS love, remind.
Of, His love, remind!

As the last breath he took, he knew his job was done.
Without picking a sword, his battle against sin was won.
Love and forgiveness was his way,
Of offering mankind a key,
To rid ourselves of all the misery.

He fulfilled His promise,
to God Almighty.
"Thy will be done and Let thy kingdom be."

The choice is ours to make,
the choice to set us free.
His sacrifice wouldn't go in vain,
If we only used the key.

As, I bow down, my head, today,
Not to weep, to mourn, or pray,
But, to express my gratitude , to
THE BEST MAN I'VE KNOWN,
JESUS CHRIST- MY SUPERSTAR,
to whom, my all, I own...
to whom, my all, I own...

Jammin With Cass (3)

Dreams more often start with a thought ,
A thought that acts as fuel to a fire.
Except that, now , it fuels your desire,
Something that won't let you tire.

Mystic twists of rambled thought,
A beauty marked, a treasure sought,
A soul no longer damned to rot,
A heart that's fueled by dreams.

Dreams are not those that come at night,
Dreams are those that show you light.
My heart is brimming with dreams, anew,
Hoping , Wishng that they come true.

Twisted beams o whisps pf light,
that whisper n the predawn light,
The dreams so sweet and subtle stay,
The nightmares now are cast away.

It seems long since I felt so free,
Troubled, tricked, trialed, never happy,
But now , I feel like flying high,
Spread my wings and touch the sky.

A heart so light , a soul so free,
Won't you come and fly with me?
The shackles left so far behind,
Forever free from these chains that bind.

* I'd love to dahlin , but i've got a date tonight,
My pocket's empty , credit's high,
I'm just completely dry,
Could you lend me your bf's suit and tie. *

Freedom is such a wonderful thing ,
Battles fought and wars waged.
What happens when the enemy is within,
Life seems empty and staged.

These that wage upon ones soul.
Where every second takes its toll.
This warmth here now has made me whole,
It's friendship's loving light.

Love reasons my existence,
The reason , my will powers me on,
to travel the distance,
my friend will guide me home.

With you around,
I don't look elsewhere for inspiration,
I love you, that's reason enough,
to settle any desperation.

You warm my heart my shining light,
4 u, my v, my soul takes flight.
The guiding moon n shadowed night,
The soothing balm that makes all things right.

Lightening and thunder , it's raining here,
With every pitter patter that fills my ear,
I've neva eva felt so sure,
That love could be as innocent and pure,
Now that it is at your heart's door.

The doors unlocked, so come right in.
Ur runny presence warms the dinn.

I'd love to get myself, right through,
Into a heart that's loving and true...
It's just that, the world's turned to night,
Sleep calls n i've to turn off the light...

THE DING DONG DAY DREAMER

DREAM 1

I was walking up the sea shore,
gazing at the sea,
I saw a blue light flashing at me,
Far across the ocean, there was something I could see.
I can't be dreaming, an inner voice told me,
With a body painted blue and white,
It moved around like a flash of light,
It dazzled and dazzled till out of sight.
I stood shivering. Oh! What an awesome night.

Again from the distance , the blue light shone,
Now , to me, all things were made known.
I heard a voice booming from the sea,
You must be from 21st century,
Here people live in the ocean and walk on the sea.
Welcome to the 22nd century.

===================

DREAM 2

Standing on the rooftop, gazing at the sky,
I wonder what are these little dots twinkling on high?
There are so many of them, who put them there?
Wasn't there a better place, any place elsewhere?

Why do butterflies flutter by?
How do birds fly so high?
It's no use sayin 'I can try'.
Because I know I can't, someone tell me ,why?

Who made the ocean? who made the seas?
Tell me , who made them? tell me please.
Who made ants and the bees?
Who planted the seeds and made them trees?

Who made the sun? Who made the rain?
I don't know, but I can't complain.
Who made man on earth and not in the sky?
could someone tell me... who, when and why?

IF I WAS AN INSECT

If i was an insect,
Do you think that I?
Would be an ant and
Climb on a butterfly.
Or would I be a mosquito
and bite my foe.

I think I would be a moth,
And go sit on a cloth.
Or would I sit on a honey bee,
And collect honey,
If I was a house fly,
I think i'd look funny.

MARS

I was standing on the terrace
gazing at the sky.
I was just wondering,
Whether a martian would drop by
The date 29/7 in 3007
The time 12:11
1000 years back, many left the earth.
Many from India,Pakistan, China and also from Perth.
They left earth and went to Mars,
They went but left behind diseases like cancer,
AIDS and SARS.
Some left earth due to scarcity of water,
Some left earth because it was getting hotter.
Some left the earth due to over population.
Some left the earth due to air and water pollution.
All these people found problems but no solution.

They left earth in a big mess,
Bless us God, bless, bless, bless...
I hear somebody calling out my name.
I look in Russia, America and Spain.
I feel my hand burning, I open my eyes to see,
My mother just dropped on me , a hot cup of tea.

Oh! What a bad dream I had.
It almost drove me mad.
Let us now protect our planet earth,
Right from India to Perth.

FREEMAN

I have no money, I have my pain,
I have no penny, I have my fame,
I have no hair, I have my mane,
I have my loss, I have no gain,
i have no home, I have my lane,
I have nothing but just my name.

My life is a challenge, it was a game,
I succumbed to the pressure and I am in shame.

I'm free man just passing by
Not too sure, when i'll crumble and die?
I am sure did climb up my fahters tree.

No penny to spare now, no penny to gain,
No worry to bother me cause its always been the same.

Thirty years since, darker the day grew,
Thirty years now, I'm just a charcoal new.
Satan had taken over me to put my life to shame,
Just as did my dad, I did the same.

I killed my wife which, seemed a pleasure to me,
A pleasure which now, I cannot see.


What time? what hour? What misfortune she had!!
She became a victim of the frustrations I had!!
The doc said I gained this genetically.
But I suggested, It may be multiple personality.


Nobody belived me at first,
But, slowly they did, as I gained their trust.
Now its too late, i'm going fast,
I dont know when i'll breathe my last.

The world's getting dark, but its surely not night.
The world's getting dark, but its not a sorry plight.
Cause a man like me is just happy to be FREE.

mY aNGEL

I looked at her as if to say hello
Watched her in a gaze and smile,
An innocent curve of those rosy pink lips
And a twinkle in her eye.

Beautiful and sure so pure,
Untouched by blemishes to-D.
Raised her brows and twitched her nose,
She did smile back at me.

Head in a rush, seemed like a blush
She was the prettiest thing i'd seen.
So tenderly pure, an aura to shore,
My heart's pounding with glee.

She's awesomely cool, I look like a fool,
But, wish I could take her to the moon with me,
Opening my mouth to a sheepish grin,
When i find her staring at me.
I must've looked an angel, with halo around,
For HER to look at me.

She starts to cry as I look her in the eye.
But never takes her eyes off me.
The cause for agony, I think I realise,
As she clenches her fist, closes her eyes,
And points to her nappy.

A Prayer

When everything seems to go wrong,
In no mood to sing a happy song,
In times of trials,trouble and despair,
When you can do nothing, but pull your hair,
Life's moving fast in back gear,
Everything's dark and nothing's fair,
No clues, you'll end up where,
No one's around , your sorrows to share,
Just think of me and i'll be there.

And if I can't prevent the tear,
Remember- You can always make a prayer.

Jamming with cassidy 1

Every moment of silence that creeps into me,
leaves me groping for the noise,
the laughter that was once a part of me...

This silence is so maddening, how can I keep control.??!
I'm losing all my sanity and
my loved will say the toll!!

It hurts me deep inside,
to hurt the ones I love...
Only you know what really lies inside,
my angel from above...

I open my arms wide and i pray that
you will come to me, save me from these sorrows for You're the only one I see...

IT'S not about begini for help,
i know i can handle things on my own...
But not now when everyone's forsaken me,
leaving me alone...

So come to me my angel and
WARM me with your light.
Give me strength to stand, stand again!
Give me the will to fight.

Fight we shall, till the end, never
give up till I last...
Either we win the battle or my life be lost...

And so the battle rages on and I give it every breath,
with IT'S end will come,
my winning or if not so my death.

I will live, cause memories hang on...
The memories may still fade away but the soul will linger on...

Jamming with cassidy

A clouded mind, a bleeding heart,
knocked outta my senses, where do I start..??

Drowning in sorrow, n the tears that i've shed,
a shattered soul, a heart thats dead...

But everything That's broken me down
and almost put me to rest.
Cannot stop me from bouncing back to give life my best.

So come on, catch me if you can,
i've got the will to fight.
The sun is shining once again,
in this land of endless night.

The night has dawned time and again,
making my life so dark...
The darkness in my life is creepy at times,
jus wish i could be a butterfly in the park...

And in this light, i wish to find the
reason to live my life.
The reason i get up each day
and don't pick up a knife.

But sometime I lose it, and
my head goes into a spin.
I just laugh my blues away
sipping on vodka and gin...

Feeling giddy as the pain
flows beneath my skin
Drowning out my sorrows
numbing all my sin.

Happiness seemed like it was here to stay,
filling my inside in a rush...
Where's it all gone now, seems like someone used a flush.

And in the void left behind,
the sorrow spills around me
Filling up my head,
i think that it will drown me.

Everytime i breakdown,
a part of me dies...
My heart's been hurt so often,
burdened by all the lies.

And in this painful sorrow,
all i can do is weep
for the lies so often spoken,
Promises i could not keep...

Promises are meant to be broken,
but words that fail make me weep...
IT'S so hard to take betrayal,
not something that would let you sleep...

And even wen i sleep, the nightmares come again,
a life filled with misery sorrow, pain and sin...

Every nightmare that hits my eyes
drives me to despair,
all i can see is a blanket of lies
that never seems to tear...

Smothering me slowly,
no one can hear my cries.
Screaming out for dear life,
i'm sorry for all the lies!!!

I'm sorry for the lies i've told,
sorry for my soul, i've sold...
Sorry for all the wrong i've done,
I'll be sorry till my soul is won...

[CASSIDY HELMS... Wherever you are, this one's for you.'! Cause without you'd , i wouldn't have any o these words... :):):) ]